Born This Way

I don't wanna wear that
It only makes me look fat
Time to tone my thighs-- gotta lose another size, yeah!
What a way to wanna be

Exfoliate--look great!
Feel guilty 'bout what you ate
You're buyin' all the books--
to learn the latest looks, yeah
What a way to wanna be

We like to buy, we like to spend,
to keep up with the latest trend
But we don't get no satisfaction
living like a slave to fashion
No more thinking for yourself,
just get it off a shelf

[Chorus:]
Oh--oh, why be perfect--no--oh,
it's not worth it
Don't be so obsessed--c'mon give it a rest
This is not some contest--just do your best
'Cause no--oh body's perfect!
What a way to wanna be

Moisturize, exercise, erase the
rings around your eyes
Cover what you can,
get a Coppertone tan, yeah
What a way to wanna be!

Stabilize the mood you're in--
you're back on diet food again
Bigger is the best, but only
in the chest, yeah!
What a way to wanna be

We like to buy, we like to spend,
to keep up with the latest trend
But we don't get no satisfaction
living like a slave to fashion
No more thinking for yourself,
just get it off a shelf

[Repeat Chorus]

It's so very--unnecessary
Yeah, how insane--to be so vain
It's so synthetic--I just don't get it
I don't get it, baby, yeah, yeah

Don't be so obsessed--c'mon give it a rest
This is not some contest--just do your best
'Cause no--oh body's perfect!

(Ooooohhhhhh)

Oh, no--oh body's perfect
No--oh, it's not worth it
Don't be so obsessed
(No--oh body's perfect)
This is not some contest
(No--oh body's perfect)
Perfect! What a way to wanna be


Although that previous song is a Shania Twain song, I can't help but title this post with the name of Lady Gaga's new release.  The other night night Chris and I went out for dinner and a movie and as I did the usual try on 3 pairs of jeans and 5 shirts with 2 different pairs of shoes, I got to thinking.  As a female we are known to be our own worst critic when it comes to the way we look and the way we are.  We beat our selves to the ground, hoping for a smaller butt, bigger boobs, a flat stomach, perfectly toned and model skinny legs, when we know deep down inside that we will never look the way we want.  As I looked in the mirror wearing a pair of jeans I haven't put on in years because I never liked the way they looked on me, I felt at peace with my body. 

Last December I told myself I didn't care if I gained weight because I was going to enjoy the holiday treats guilt free.  I am too young to restrict myself, because once I am older I know I wont be able to enjoy these delicious treats as often.  That's just what I did, but secretly of course I hated that I put on 5 pounds over the winter.  I kept telling myself I was going to quit eating treats, I was going to lose the winter weight and I would be back to normal.  Well 6 months later I haven't lost all the weight I wanted to lose, but have lost 3 pounds, and here I am still enjoying my tasty treats.

As I looked at myself wearing these jeans I realized that no matter what I do, my body will always be my body and it will always look the same.  No matter what, my legs will be strong and muscular, my calves will be too big for the rest of my body, my butt will always be big, my hips will be small, my forearms will be too small, and my abdominals will never be the way I want them to be.  Whether I lift weights or not my arms will always look muscular, it's just the way I am.  I was born this way, these are my genes and I cannot change them, I have to embrace them.  So here I am at 26 years old and finally at peace and ackowledging who I am and what I look like.